“It’s about the lengths we go to protect the ones we love… and the high price we pay when we can’t.”
Rating: 5/5 stars
Release Date: September 4, 2018
Thank you to Wednesday Books for providing me with a copy of this book and inviting me to be a part of this blog tour!
Sadie hasn’t had an easy life. Growing up on her own, she’s been raising her sister Mattie in an isolated small town, trying her best to provide a normal life and keep their heads above water.
But when Mattie is found dead, Sadie’s entire world crumbles. After a somewhat botched police investigation, Sadie is determined to bring her sister’s killer to justice and hits the road following a few meagre clues to find him.
When West McCray—a radio personality working on a segment about small, forgotten towns in America—overhears Sadie’s story at a local gas station, he becomes obsessed with finding the missing girl. He starts his own podcast as he tracks Sadie’s journey, trying to figure out what happened, hoping to find her before it’s too late.
tw: child abuse, sexual assault, drug addiction, graphic violence
Well, bookish friends, this is going to go down as one of my favorite books EVER. I’m not sure I can adequately express how much I loved this story but also how shattered my heart is at the same time. First and foremost let’s get this out of the way, this is not an easy read. Sadie, is definitely more of a mature YA novel. It heavily ties into the society we live in today in the way it handles child abuse and sexual assault. It’s a heavy read that at times made me feel sick to my stomach and will haunt you weeks after you finish it. Trust me, I’m still constantly going back and reread the ending of this almost three weeks later! But despite how heavy it is, it is still one of the best books I’ve ever had the pleasure of reading.
Sadie, is so much more than your typical murder mystery novel. In fact this story easily goes down as one of my favorite mystery novels because of how compelling the POV’s were written. The first POV is Sadie herself. She holds back absolutely nothing from readers in terms of her grief, guilt, love, and determination to avenge Mattie’s death. The second POV is told from West McCray and his true crime podcast as he tries to track down Sadie and help her return home safely. Both POV’s concurred with one another so perfectly that I could not read this fast enough. I was literally on the edge of my seat desperate to find out how it was going to end.
Pro tip: treat yourself to a manicure after this and not before because you will bite all your nails off due to anticipation.
Sadie’s character is one that is easy to fall in love with and root for. Sadie, raised her little sister Mattie, for basically her entire life due to their mother’s absence and drug addiction. She is described as “secondary player in her own life” because she truly lives her life with only one person in mind, and that is Mattie. So when Sadie learns Mattie is murdered the anger and grief she feels is incredibly raw, and yet Sadie knows the only thing she can do for Mattie now is find her killer and make sure she kills them herself. I constantly found myself rooting so hard for Sadie to get the answers and justice she deserved but also feared immensely for her safety since the minute she packed up and left Cold Creek.
This was one of those books that you pick up every possible free second you have. If you think I’m lying just know that I read one of the biggest plot twists EVER while I was sitting in line at the Starbucks drive-thru, I’m not even kidding. Sadie’s dangerous journey will consume your life as she hunts down her sister’s killer. At the same time this is absolutely one of those reads where less is more in terms of what you know. The less you know going into this the more you will be immersed in the race against the clock to #FindSadie. If there is one thing you need to know besides this being a heavy ready it’s that the pacing starts off a little slow but by the end of this story you will be in full on panic mode. You’ve been warned.
As for the ending, my lips are sealed but just know I initially struggled with it and was very confused, hurt, in disbelief, and a slew of other emotions but after sleeping on it I know this… it’s the ending this book deserved and needed.
All in all, this is a story about sisterhood, love, loss, grief, and hope all wrapped into one heart-pounding story. This was my first Courtney Summers novel but it certainly will not be my last. Also for anyone who has read this book or will be reading it, when you finish PLEASE come talk to me about the ending! Thank you so much again to Wednesday Books for providing me with a copy of the book and inviting me to be a part of this blog tour. I couldn’t have imagined starting off my first ever blog tour with a better book!
Until next time,