“God gives us the ugliness so we don’t take the beautiful things in life for granted.”
Rating: 4/5 stars
Format: Physical copy
When Tate Collins meets airline pilot Miles Archer, she knows it isn’t love at first sight. They wouldn’t even go so far as to consider themselves friends. The only thing Tate and Miles have in common is an undeniable mutual attraction. Once their desires are out in the open, they realize they have the perfect set-up. He doesn’t want love, she doesn’t have time for love, so that just leaves the sex. Their arrangement could be surprisingly seamless, as long as Tate can stick to the only two rules Miles has for her.
Never ask about the past.
Don’t expect a future.
They think they can handle it, but realize almost immediately they can’t handle it at all.
Hearts get infiltrated.
Promises get broken.
Rules get shattered.
Love gets ugly.
I wasn’t really prepared to be emotionally devastated when picking this up, but HERE WE ARE. It’s fair enough to say that this book gutted me, and the title should be switched to Ugly Cry because honestly, that’s all you’ll do for the second half of this book. The premise of the story is pretty simple…two people have a mutual attraction, they decide on having a friends with benefits type of relationship, it gets really MESSY. Honestly, a little eye roll worthy at times but I wasn’t expecting this book to be so fucking heavy.
In usual CoHo fashion I devoured this book in basically one sitting, and as of right now this sits on the #2 spot of my favorite CoHo books. I don’t foresee It Ends With Us getting kicked out of the #1 spot any time soon. There’s just something about the author’s writing and characters that hooks me every single time, however, this was the first time I actually disliked a MC from a CoHo book. Who am I? The funny thing about this book is that from a lot of the reviews I’ve seen everyone seems to like Tate more than Miles. Me, though? I really couldn’t stand Tate but LIVED for Miles.
Miles, isn’t your typical broody alpha male, so if that’s what you’re looking for don’t even bother. It’s clear from the beginning that Miles has been through some shit, and while we don’t find out what exactly it is until a lot further into the book I figured it would be a little more than some toxic past relationship. He was such an amazing complex character who was open about being emotionally unavailable from literally the second him and Tate met. I mean his conditions of their “friends with benefits” relationship were 1. don’t ask questions about the past and 2. don’t expect a future. How much clearer does that get? And this is why I couldn’t stand Tate, because she willingly entered a relationship KNOWING she was going to get hurt. She said so herself. For a smart girl, she made a pretty dumb call and then whined for a lot of the book because Miles was upholding his part of the deal. Ugh, I was annoyed and this is why I couldn’t give it five stars.
Now, I’m not going to spoil what happened to Miles in the past that essentially made him swear off all forms of love, but SHIT. I was not expecting it, and yes, I sobbed and ugly cried a whole lot. This black ol’ heart of mine was feeling emotions it hasn’t felt in a long time and it just really hurt. Honestly, it still hurts thinking about this book and I’ve given myself a considerable amount of time to recover, but as usual it was everything I could have hoped for and more.
“But the second she opened her eyes and looked at me, I knew. She was either going to be the death of me . . . or she was going to be the one who finally brought me back to life.”
“That’s how it is when a person develops an attraction toward someone. He’s nowhere, then suddenly he’s everywhere, whether you want him to be or not.”
“Ugly love becomes you. Consumes you. Makes you hate it all. Makes you realize that all the beautiful parts aren’t even worth it. Without the beautiful, you’ll never risk feeling the ugly. So you give it all up. You give it all up. You never want love again, no matter what kind it is, because no type of love will ever be worth living through the ugly love again.”
All in all, despite me wanting to slap some sense into Tate 80% of the time, I still loved this book. CoHo has yet to let me down and continues to remind me time and time again why she is one of my favorite authors.
Until next time,