Rating: 3/5 stars
Format: Physical Copy
Release Date: August 6, 2019
Thank you Jimmy Patterson Books for providing me with a review copy in exchange for an honest review!
On the run from the FBI.
Targeted by a murderous cult.
Labeled a cyber-terrorist by the media.
Irritated texts from his best friend.
Eye contact with a nice-looking guy on the train.
Aidan has a lot to deal with, and he’s not quite sure which takes top priority.
Finding himself alone in a posh New York City hotel room for the night, Aidan does what any red-blooded seventeen-year-old would do—he tries to hook up with someone new. But that lapse in judgement leads to him waking up next to a dead guy, which sparks an epic case of mistaken identity that puts Aidan on the run from everyone—faceless federal agents, his eccentric family, and, naturally, a cyber-terrorist group who will stop at nothing to find him.
He soon realizes the only way to stop the chase is to deliver the object everyone wants, before he gets caught or killed. But for Aidan, the hardest part is knowing who he can trust not to betray him—including himself.
tw: mentions of suicide, drug use, murder, adult/teen sexual relationships
One thing that I absolutely cannot take away from the author is that he definitely creates some of the most original and unique stories I’ve ever read. Last year, I reviewed Derek Milman’s debut novel Scream All Night on here and just like his debut this was a wild ride from start to finish.
What I enjoyed
🏁 This is a SUPER fast paced read. It’s action-packed from the very beginning until the very end, so even if you have trouble becoming invested with the characters (like I did) the plot is still good enough to keep you wanting more and flying through chapters every time you sit down to read it.
❤️ Aidan, the MC, has a heart defect and is anxious over the potentially short life he may live due to said heart defect. His anxiety over having a medical condition is something that makes him extremely relatable to readers who struggle with either of the two.
🔀 Is Aidan on the Swans side? Will he help the FBI? The two questions you’ll constantly be asking yourself throughout this. There is so much double crossing in this book that it will make your head spin and unsure of who or what to trust. There were points in this book where I found myself not being able to trust even the FBI agents. It will keep you guessing on who is good and bad until the end.
What I didn’t like
👦🏻 For starters, Aidan. I had trouble connecting with him from the very beginning, however, there’s a certain turning point in this story where I lost all respect for him. Essentially Aidan has sexual relationships with much older men. At the time of the story he’s 17 but frequently talks about his previous sexual relationship with his ex-best friends father…which would make him about 16 at the time. When Tom (ex-best friends dad) breaks things off with Aidan, Aidan then goes on to send him e-mails about his life until one day out of frustration and desperation he e-mails Tom telling him that Tom “left scars on him and because of that he was thinking of killing himself”. In the next sentence he admits to readers that he was never really planning on killing himself and Y’ALL I WAS DONE. That is absolutely not okay, not cool, and will be tolerated in any way shape or form on my end. So Aidan, honey, you are trash. I don’t care how old or young you are, you never try to manipulate someones feelings by threatening to kill yourself.
🏳️🌈 The LGBT+ inclusivity could have been better. Aidan gets mistakenly caught up with a gay terror group. And this book talks a lot about gay rights movements, which okay is great, but it doesn’t include anything other than gay men. There’s no other rep and I think it could have worked so much better if it was more inclusive, especially since Aidan’s family didn’t reciprocate his coming out very well… and that does happen to more than just gay men. For a more in-depth discussion about this check out Sol – TheBookishKing’s video HERE.
All in all, even though I definitely did have my issues with this book I would be lying if I said I wasn’t flying through this to see how it ends. In usual Derek Milman fashion this is a super original, unique, intense, and eccentric story that will take readers on a wild journey in just over 300 pages.
Until next time,